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Well, I just wanted to rant more than anything. I realize that no one will probably even read this more less reply but I have to get this out because I don't really have any friends or anyone to talk to.

So basically, like a lot of bigger women out there, I have always dealt with severe insecurities because of my body type. It really isn't because I'm fat, I love being fat, it's really more the fact of how disproportionate I am. Basically I am 5'2 and 263 lbs. I wear a 44 B and have basically no ass. I was done wrong as a fetus I know. I tell you this because I am hoping that some FAs will read this and be able to tell me that it's okay or something.

Anyway, my fiance is an FA but he has always openly admitted that he wishes I had larger breasts and a much larger ass. Do you see how this is hard for me? All of the BBWs and SSBBWs here are so beautiful and I have NEVER met another big girl with no boobs or ass. Maybe no ass or no boobs, but never both. 

Anyway, my FA has a habit of staring at every single solitary BBW or SSBBW that we pass. He even admitted to me last night that he totally prefers SSBBWs and that basically he was only with me because I'm a good mom, good in bed, and because he loves me. I mean, I know that he's attracted to me, but he's definitely not as attracted to me as he is most other women, and it's very hard to know. I need someone to tell me that I'm still beautiful because he never tells me that.

Just so you know, this account was actually set up for both me and my fiance because he wants to look at other chicks' pics and because I just want some reassurance that I'm attractive, or proof that I'm definitely not (which is what I believe). 

Given the info I've given you and the pictures I've included, I'm asking that the FAs that respond tell me the truth of what they think of me. On a scale of 1-5 (1 being hideous, 5 being sexy as hell).

And for the other beautiful ladies that answer this, if you could just give me some advice on how to make my body look better to him (whether it be wearing certain clothes or anything) and on how to really get him going. I wanna be able to take his mind off of other women because it's truly killing me inside. Not that he looks, but that he can't stop looking (and I assume this to be because he hates what he sees when he looks at me).  Even negative replies will help me.  Thanks to anyone who takes time out to read this and/or reply.

ok... I am going to give you a 4 to 4.5.   I do think you are cute and beautiful. Here are the reasons why. Remember this is only my opinion.
The pics of you are good pics.  To me you have a very good body shape.  You have a wonderful belly.  The way the thong fits on you helps show it off.    I think, you should show it off more.  Accentuate it more.  Your breasts are fine.  Yes, I did say fine.  I like the shape of them in the pics you provided.  They look very kissable and suckable.  Don't worry about the size of them.  There are men out there who like small breasts. Me personally... I love them all, small or big.  Lastly, your butt.  From the the couple of pic of it, I think it ok.  IT has a good shape.  So what if there isn't a lot of padding on it.  I like the little mini cheeks it has near the crack and near the pussy.  It is a cute area that is squeezable and easy to kiss.  Again, these are my opinions. 
I had to watch your vid a couple of time.  I am a FA and I find you attractive. But my opinion shouldn't matter to you.  What matters is how YOU feel about YOU.  Do little things to help you feel better about yourself and more confident.  Show off what you have.  I feel bad that your fiance doesn't tell you that you are hot or attractive enough.  Besides he should love you  for you and not necessarily for how you look.  He should want to be with you for who you are and you already said that.  YOu are beautiful on the outside and I'm sure you are just as beautiful on the inside.  So keep your chin up, be confident and know you are attractive woman.  I hope this helps you find what you seek.